woe is me....
yep that kind of day today. I have to say this is not like me...seriously it is not! I started out extremely positive and so happy to be in this art program with the artist from Florence Italy. I have hardly been able to contain myself in waiting to start this class.
First day was great, truly was. Second day was a little intimidating, I had to draw. Drawing is not my favourite thing to do, but I can do it... Let me stress I CAN do it!
I was nervous and ended up finishing my drawing at home.
I did get it.
This morning was the first time I have tried to draw from a real live model...this is intimidating. I can only say 'THANK YOU LORD FOR HIS HAVING CLOTHES!'
Yes, I am thankful...
Well, there is such a large class that we have one tiny room and one large room. I had been in the large one, but somehow have been placed in the tiny one for the rest of the workshop. That is fine, what is not fine is that the instructor RARELY comes into the room to give you guidance or support. He is monopolized in the other room. So if you start
off wrong, chances are you continue doing so and compounding the problem.
This I did....
I tried and tried to fix it, but only got more frustrated and less done.
By the end I was almost in tears and thinking very negative
thoughts, about my never painting again (seriously) and thinking of walking out....ripping all my hard work to shreds (I didn't)....
Very, very negative....this is not me.
Granted I was frustrated and expecting more guidance than I received, but I should have been much more positive than that. I know how to do it, I just needed to focus.
There in was my problem... I was in a diabetic low....
It manifested itself into total negativity.
This was not me; no this was my medical condition. It had snuck up on me and if
I wasn't so focused on what I was doing wrong, I would have realized something
I am resting tonight and will go in with fresh eyes tomorrow and
Oh I pray tomorrow is better.